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A SAN FRANCISCO STORY When I tried
to explain my brief fling with Carol Richards to my cat Mikki I realized it was a typical
San Francisco story. New girl comes to town---attractive, smart, sexy---young
man of modest achievement, thats me, gets to her first and they become a couple.
Young man starts thinking of more permanent connection but she has more
ambitious plans. I was a New
Yorker whod come to California, had been in San Francisco for a year, had a
reasonably good job as a media buyer in an ad agency, also had a car and an apartment (the
modest achievements). I also had a cat, Mikki, who a girl at the agency I was
interested in at the time had persuaded me to take as a kitten. The girl had
since left but Mikki had stayed. I met Carol
Richards when I visited a friend at the guest house he was staying. At
that time, in the 1950s, guest houses, a fancier name for what used to be called
boarding houses, were very popular with young people in San Francisco.
You got a room and two meals a day at a fairly reasonably rate and stayed there until you
were able to get your own place. My friend had
invited me for dinner. Afterwards, a bunch of us went to a nearby bar for some
drinks, the kind of bar with sawdust on the floor, beer in pitchers and peanuts to go with
them. I saw at once that Carol was the most attractive girl there and
contrived to sit next to her. Shed been in the city for only a month and
was working as a secretary in, what else, an ad agency. So we had
something in common right away. Id been to Europe while in the Army.
Shed gone to Europe as a graduation present. Something
else, almost, in common. I asked her out to dinner; she accepted.
The story had begun. Ill
skip over the next couple of months, which were a lot of fun as I, by now a veteran San
Franciscan, was able to show her all over the place: Golden Gate Park, the Marina,
Sausalito, the Buena Vista, Sams in Tiburon. The only cautionary note
was that, when Carol stayed over at my place, Mikki was neutral to her. Maybe
I should have been put on alert but the first real warning came when we went to one of
those Friday-night-the- workweek, thank God, is- over parties that everyone went to in
those days. This
particular party was big, about a hundred people crammed into a not very large apartment,
noisy and smoky, and after a couple of hours, when people started getting drunk, I was
ready to leave. I spotted Carol in a corner talking intimately
with a large red-faced fellow wearing not only a suit but a vest. I pushed my
way through my way through to her and said, What a mob. Im ready
to go. Oh,
no, she said. We were just having this fascinating
conversation. She introduced me to the Vest, whose name I promptly
forgot. The Vest held a drink and a cigarette in one hand and was swaying back
and forth. Whats
so fascinating? Hes
an account executive in my agency. He just got divorced.
He was telling me about his ex- wife. She used to
throw things at him. Definitely
fascinating, but I can hardly breathe in here. Why dont we get some
fresh air? Oh,
dont be a party pooper. Carols color was high, as it always
was when she was drinking, and her words were a little slurred. Just then the
Vest settled the matter by muttering something incomprehensible and passing out onto a
nearby couch. It was too late to save his drink, which spilled, but I put out
the still burning cigarette. Ready to go now? I asked. Carol looked
a little surprised. Yes, I suppose so. In the car, she
said, He was the first divorced man I ever met. I thought he was
interesting. Maybe
he was, while he was conscious. I reached over and kissed her.
That was the end of the quarrel but not of the uneasy feeling I was getting. Another few
weeks went past, then Carol called to say she couldnt see me that weekend, she
wasnt feeling well. Ill come over, I said, picturing
her pale-faced in her bed. No, I
feel lousy and I look lousy. Dont come. Ill call
you. I put down
the phone and looked at Mikki. Well, people do get sick. When Carol
called, it was to tell me that she was going away the next week to visit some
friends in Monterey. Itll give me a chance to rest, she
said. Ill call you when I get back. Oh, did I tell you about
my promotion? Im not a secretary any more. Im going to
be an executive assistant. I didnt
know exactly what that was but congratulated her anyway. Ill buy
you dinner when you get back, I promised. I also wondered whether the
executive shed assist was the Vest. Id ask her at dinner when she
returned. But when Caol
returned, she and two other girls from the guest house decided to move into their own
apartment. I helped them move, along with at least a dozen other guys.
We made a party of it, with beer and pizza, which was fine, but I could never
find a chance to talk to Carol. Then the next two weekends she was busy fixing
up the new apartment. About that
time we had a crisis at my ad agency. A big account was threatening to leave,
a periodic event in the ad business, and everyone had to work late nights and over
weekends I called Carol a few times during this period and
she told me that she too was terribly busy. Since her promotion the work
kept piling up. By now even I suspected that the thing with Carol was
ending, if not over, and I told Mikki as much. But I still wanted to see her,
even if it was for the last time. I suppose I just wanted to make sure. Finally, I
had a night off and Carol was free so we arranged to meet after work and Id buy her
that celebratory dinner. When I got to the restaurant, she was at the bar with
another girl from her agency and, it seemed, two men, also from her agency.
She introduced me to them. They were both beefy and shiny-faced, as if covered
in oil, vice presidents no less, from the Los Angeles office. One of them
ordered a round of drinks for everyone. Carol, I saw, wore a business suit.
Her color was high and she talked rapidly, explaining that the VPs, Tom and
Jerry or whatever their names were, were in San Francisco on a business trip and had
offered to take us all out to dinner. Somehow this was not the evening
Id envisaged. I thought I was taking you out to dinner, I
said. Tom and
Jerry dont have anywhere else to go tonight and Id like to show them the
town. Sure,
I said. Suddenly I felt incredibly tired, as if Id boxed ten or twenty
rounds. Maybe working all those late nights had caught up with me.
The restaurant was warm and I felt a little dizzy. Id
wanted to talk to Carol but spending the night with Tom and Jerry was out of the question.
Excuse me for a minute, I said. I have to make
a phone call. I walked out to the restaurant lobby, then past the phone
booth, then out the door into the blessed cold air, then kept on going up Sutter Street to
my apartment. I switched on the light. Id been neglecting the place. The sofa-bed was unmade and newspapers were scattered on the floor. Dirty dishes from breakfast were still in the sink. Mikki appeared from somewhere and meowed at me. Dont ask, I told her. I sank down into the one good chair. I couldnt believe how tired I was. I dont know how long Id been sitting there when Carol came through the door. She walked over to me, bent down and kissed me. Her lips on mine were as light as a feather. I could smell her perfume. Then she was gone. I opened my eyes; the unmade bed and the newspapers were still there. So was Mikki. I got up and put some food in her dish. Tomorrow, I told her, well get this place cleaned up. It was still early but I felt exhausted. I went to bed, immediately fell asleep and this time Carol didnt come. The story was over.
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© Martin Green February 2005
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